I'm a loser...
I'll be back...in the meantime I lost my comments now! :( So I can't keep up with anyone. Damn haloscan!
Anyways...Update coming soon!!!
Single mom working to get her second degree in nursing, take care a 3 year old, and keep her sanity in the mean time.
So I made the traditional resolutions, but I plan on keeping them.
First one is to lose weight, but I do not plan on dieting. I plan on making changes in my eating, becausing frankly....a diet doesn't work for me. I have no will power at all, none, nada, nil...zip, zero, none. So I am paying attention more to what I buy food wise and what I snack on. The great thing is that the past few weeks...I have been eating until full, and not buying TOO many snacks that are not good. What I have been doing is working out with Wii Fit Plus..wow. Now you can get away with doing very little on this "game" but I usually choose the rough route, with going easy every couple of days. I am actually loving it! The only problem I am having is with ab muscles. I think between pregnancy, being overweight, and appendectomy all within about 4 months kind of tore up my abs. I work out for awhile, and I get the HUGE cramp in my stomach half way through that feels like those nasty charlie horses you get in your calf but in my stomach. I Have to lay on my stomach for about an hour to release the cramp...so I gotta work on those muscles a little bit easier and work my way up.
Anyways...I am kinda psyched about this. YAY me!
Here is a photo of Brooke and I at my pinning ceremony (it's a nursing school traditional ceremony). Please realize she was with grandma during the ceremony with having punch after so she is a little bit of a mess...lol. Oh yeah...she also needed a haircut but we had snow storms that week, that kind of threw that out the window.
And here is a photo of probably one of the only people in my class that I want to have a long life friendship with...Jess
I'm going to work like hell to make sure Brooke & I take a cruise in 2011. That will be the last year she will not be in school, and I want to take it in as much as possible.
Today I spent a good 6 hours looking for blogs about single parent cruising, and to be honest, I found very little. Sure, I found articles saying how great it was, and how much fun kids can have (not to mention myself). But I didn't find any REAL good information on single parent cruising.
I am afraid of cruising as a single mom with a child alone. Everything I read about safety and things like that don't concern me. It sounds like Disney keeps their cruises pretty safe for the kids (as safe as a kid can be anywhere that is), so I don't worry about that part. I worry about myself...how much fun can cruising alone with a child can be?
Sure you can send your child to the clubs and enjoy some "me" time, but come on...I can only spend so much "me" time alone! I am afraid of how lonely I will get! I tend to get quite shy around people I don't know, it is the self esteem part of me...so I will sit on the deck, swim, go the <gasp> bar and sit there alone, even though I yearn to go to the dance club, and get my boogie on (boy does that age me!)...I'll probably sit in the sports bar, because that is just where it is easier to be when you are alone. Who wants to watch a bunch of couples dancing together, while you are there alone?(this is all while Brooke is in the club of course).
I plan to spend significant amount of time with her, but a couple of hours a day could do myself some good. I could go work out(ugh!), sit on the deck, swim, go to the bar, take whatever little class they offer...but that is just not so much fun alone.
I really don't have many friends that I know who would go on a cruise with me, but I hope that in the next few months, I will meet some...
But...I am bound and determined to make this trip happen. Even if I go and spend all my me time in the stateroom...it will still be me time. No worrying about cleaning up, making the bed, cooking dinner, etc...It will be relaxing I hope.
On the other hand, I hope to treat my daughter to the vacation of a lifetime. To see her lightup when she sees the characters, dance at the parties on deck, do all the fun things that kids do in the club...that, alone would be worth the trip.
Brooke was in her daycare since she was 12 weeks old. She is now going on 4 January 6th(my goodness where has time gone). This made it very difficult for me when I dropped her off the other day for her last day. I have state sanctioned daycare, and since I am done with school, I can no longer get the daycare sanctioned, so we had to say goodbye.
Since everyone has become a big part of our family, I/we made chocolate covered pretzels to give to the staff at the daycare. After making a
mess bunch of these treat bags, I took them in to the daycare and had Brooke pass them out to everyone. The first room we took them to was to the cook...then we dropped off to her current teacher. Ok..no problem, we can do this. We get back to the nursery where her first teacher, T, was working. She gave Brooke a hug, and that was the end. I ended up bawling. Yes, I cried. Why?? I felt like a fool. We took the bags to the other classrooms as I sobbed. A few of the teachers looked at me like I was insane....
So to me it was an end.
I was going to enroll Brooke into Head Start. I went in to ask about it, and maybe get a tour. When I walked in the lady looks at me and says "You have to call central registration." Umm ok...well can I get some information "You will have to call". Ummm that did not go over well. So I called central registration. They registered her, and told me that they should not have acted like that and should have answered any questions I had, and given me a tour. Ok...so I get home..and start thinking about it. I don't think I want to do this now. I got a feeling in the pit of my stomach, and decided I was not comfortable with this place, so I decided to keep her home with me. When I get a job, I will reenroll her in the daycare she has been going to and that will be the end of that.
Well it is 3:00 and I just caught up on reading blogs. Unfortunately, my reader doesn't go back more than 30 days apparently, but that is ok...I'll catch up when I need to if I don't understand something. I wasn't able to comment on everyone's..I just am not in the swing of this anymore..but I'll get there eventually.
It has been interesting, reading about other single mom's new or old relationships, new jobs, new parenting issues, and new situations in life.
My heart goes out to all of them...and how I missed them all so much. I am glad to be able to find time again for myself, even if it is in the middle of the night while Brooke sleeps behind me.
In the meantime, a few things you didn't know was going on.
Remember in my Hell froze over post(ok..nevermind, I guess I never wrote that post, it was in July)...my little brother got married...yeah, well they have split. I probably shouldn't get into details, but I kinda understand what has happened, though I think they are splitting a little too fast, or at least planning on doing it permanently a little too fast, but what can you do.
Brooke had her last day at daycare last week. I sobbed. I will tell that story in another post, because I really feel it needs a post all to it's own. I have made decisions that are going to affect our lives for the next few months while I wait on taking boards.
I really have a lot I want to talk about, so I am going to keep my Live writer open on my computer when it is on, so I can just jump into a post when I feel inspired, but until then, I should get some sleep.
How hard is it to blog? Apparently, I find it real difficult, hence you haven't heard from me in a long time. I'm going to try to get moving on this again, because outside of a take home final....I will be officially....
DONE WITH NURSING SCHOOL!!!!!
So there ya have it...That is where I am at. Brooke and I have had a very busy last year with school, I didn't think it would ever end. Now I have to get ready to take boards, probably late January/early February.
I have probably lost a lot of my readers, mostly because of my lack of posting, but to be honest, I haven't had a chance to read all the blogs I used to read. I will get back to that eventually, I promise. First, though, I have a bedroom full of a year of neglect. There is no food rotting under the covers, or poopy diapers from when Brooke was a baby sitting around..it is just that I have clutter everywhere. I must have about 50 nursing books alone just kinda leaning against the piece of metal bookshelf they are on. My closet is just filled with things piled in there in boxes with no rhyme or reason other than..."I don't know what to do with this" pile.
Brooke is doing wonderful. She is blossoming into a beautiful child with stubborness that she certainly does not get from me..(blinking innocent eyes).
She has taken on phrases such as "What the hectic?" to responding to the comment "Brooke you are so silly" with "Yes, I am." She is still obsessed with toes, can not break her of that...AND she is OBSESSED with her Crocs which make me look like a bad mom when she is wearing them in 30 degree weather...but hey, she is wearing socks, and there is no snow on the ground, So MIND YOUR OWN DAMNED business.
I am excited with the things to come...Wow...once I find a nursing job, 2 more months and me and the kid will be living in our own little home. It's hard to believe, but it is now becoming more real. I have basically sworn off relationships the last 2 years...and yes to those saucy people I know...I even sworn off sex. Sex makes life too complicated while in nursing school. Especially when you aren't dating anyone specific. In order to have sex, you have to meet someone, which means you have to have a babysitter, which means you sometimes have to have money, which means you have a job, which means you have little time for studying, which means that when you are studying...you are not paying much attention to your child, which means the child has a lot of resentment, which means she starts to act out, which means you get exhausted dealing with the acting out, which means that you lose precious study time......well you get the picture.
I look forward to catching up on everyone's blogs. I hope you all still remember me.
Oh yeah, Im getting rid of Blogher...it's just too intense for me...too many rules...I'm already structured by rules with school..Don't need anymore.
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